I really hate my life..... Why im the only felt one left out..... Is it because im ugly, fat, stupid inmature and i wear tudung..... Fine i admite that im ugly, fat, stupid and i inmature.... And maybe i really look old in my age..... I know that i make people bored when they are around me... All people have interest life and a happy moment in their life but i have none..... Why do i have to put a fake smild around people when i not happy..... Im sick and tried to always be the good girl...... Wat happen if one day i turn into a bad girl??? Will i get my happiness that i been searching all this while...... Now i keep thinking wat happen if that day really come??? Why done people just understand my feeling..... I sick and tried to think about this and cry all nite.... Maybe this is how i should life for the rest for my life......
Why do i even bother to write this..... As if people will read..... I think i should just delect the blog....
to busy with study and personal matter.....
now the project has started....
i have two project need to hand in soon before
national day.....
then exam is getting nearer......
also there will be a two week of break
for yog on 14 august.....
tomorrow got swimming lesson....
can't wait for that......
that all for today....
again..... and i will be study
in new environment and in new school.....
last Friday, my class went on a tour
in the new school at cck.....
the school is so much and nice at the same time.....
we get to see the new class and new lab....
all the classroom has air-con... cool or wat....
but i bet that in the first day of school alot
for my classmate (maybe include me) will get
abit lost to find the new class..... but in the school, you have to
sit a index number..... but it okey we all a classmate anyway..
and we got get more close we each other....
also at the new school has a swimming pool, and swim is
part of our pe..... okey lah, at least get free swim lesson........
will can't wait to start new school and confirm has alot
for project now...... hahahahaha
see you guys soon in the new school....
it feel like it will explode soon.......
is it cause of him....... come on fatin it cant be......
it all history...... why it sudden came back now.....
why i feel like crying........ OMG, come on fatin you done it once
and you can do it again...... just believe in urself......
come on fatin just forget about it..... you are dreaming......
let just forget about it and hope tomorrow will be
as per normal..... just let the feeling go..........
you will never get what you want
hope very thing will be normal again........
finally it school holidays.......
yesterday was the last for school and the last
test paper..... it was CPA, it was okey for me
but i can answer the last three question.... so sad.....
but it okey.... atleast i try my best..... when the
school break is done on 5 july, we be start to study at
the new campus at chua cho kang.... really cant
wait to go to the new campus.... on the 25 june we be
having a tour at the new campus and take a look
at the new class.....
i also wanted to watch the karate kid..... girls let
plan a outing soon.... i really2 want to watch it......
i will miss them.... hope get to see you girls soon.....
okeylah....... that all for todays..........